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I am a robot.

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 26, 2006, 5:33 PM

I'm no longer an artist, I think. If there were an official ministry that took note of these things, it'd probably be on record by now.

Nothing inspires me anymore. All this empiricism is bringing me down, and yet for some reason I embrace it. Maybe I'm just a glutton for punishment (or a sadistic sort of morale plague), but there's this inherent rightness in logic that I can't seem to turn away from. Even when I attempt art -- "art" as a conscious effort ("Let's create art!") -- it comes off as pretentious.

Art feels pretentious. Questioning art feels pretentious. Both the left and the right feel pretentious, for different reasons. Fuck, even the concept of blogging is pretentious to some extent. Should I just sod the second-guessing altogether? It's a part of my life's methodology, you see, although perhaps I'm just jaded.

Then again, maybe the very aesthetic of logic and causality appeals to my artistic sense of beauty -- science as the grandest work of art and all that. It's either a) terribly conceited of humanity for applying a paltry human concept like art (however all-encompassing within human culture it may be) to such a wide scope, or b) terribly assumptive of us to assume that a greater power is at work sculpting these things to Its own artistic fancy. Still, on the surface it's a very attractive reconciliation.

Can an artist disbelieve in such things as altruism, love, and the soul? Not out of experience or lack of evidence, but rather a simple working knowledge of human nature? As an artist, I feel obligated to romanticism. As myself, I feel given to logic.

I convinced a friend recently of how paying attention to the man behind the curtains reveals the tawdry logical processes at work that drive such things as altruism, love, and other basic human emotions. I explained how these nebulous, grandiose processes could be broken down into chemicals and numbers, putting us in touch with a greater understanding of how the world works. I'm fine now, so I expected her to be fine, too. She waxed suicidal, for a time.

A morale plague, as I said before.

And then, I asked myself... "She's not okay. Am I? Have I simply desensitised myself to this life? How healthy has it left me?" In a moment of hopeless introspection, I asked my friend if I was even human. She told me that in many ways, I was not. I'm inclined to agree. In a bitter sort of irony, I dream of a transhumanistic future. In my case, would it be as simple as placing an organic robotic mind within a bionic shell?

But then... Do I even create art anymore? Do I even feel art? No? Well, I suppose that solves that.

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Bah. Blogs are meant to be more petty than this, I think. Um... The Burger King games for the Xbox are surprisingly fun. At $3.99, you can't go wrong. That is all.

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Mood: Neutral
Listening to: Red Hot Chili Peppers - 21st Century
Reading: my Bardic entry, then deleting it
Watching: a text world scroll on by
Playing: said aforementioned text world
Drinking: Mountain Dew: Code Red

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~Shiin-no-Baka

1 day 3 hours ago

Rawr!

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"Anyway, if you stop tellin' people it's all sorted out after they're dead, they might try sorting it all out while they're alive."
-Terry Pratchett/Neil Gaiman, Good Omens

~DelphinusW

Dec 24, 2007, 9:22:43 PM

Recovering? I wouldn't say that. I paid lip service to everyone's favourite imaginary friend up until about seventh grade, but I was never exactly the religious sort.

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~Antreus

Apr 11, 2007, 8:42:09 PM

"Reading: my Bardic entry, then deleting it"

One thing that caught my eye, and I laughed to myself. I write things and yeah I'm like why the hell did I write that to begin with. Sometimes when I write stuff and read it later I am amazed how horribly dramatic it seems and yeah like you said above... pretentious.

Like I will write something and a week later--no, a few minutes after, I will wonder what the hell I was thinking. Delete.

You seem like a really obsessive person, perhaps a bit compulsive? Are you a recovering christian? Yeah, I climb that already.

~Antreus

Apr 11, 2007, 8:35:13 PM

Hey Delph,

It's Antreus

I was just reading what you wrote and your a very beautiful writer and quite honestly addressed a lot of how I myself feel about quite a lot of things--but I always knew we thought similar anyways.

Have a nice day.

~pirogi

Sep 19, 2006, 6:03:42 PM

Hi.

~kenneththeman

May 29, 2006, 8:38:17 AM

Someday I hope to achieve what you have. It's a wonderful cornucopia of splendid serendipity. My momma used to tell me to eat my vegetables. In retrospect, I wish I would have. Then I would have been as strong a robot artist as yourself. But at least I am still better at dancing the robot!

~Lanymiro

May 7, 2006, 4:39:39 PM

Go delphi Go! Now seek & destroy Morgoth in Vanilla angband or hengband(japanese version)

PS(find de one ring if u can)

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@_@ We are too busy mopping the floor to turn off the faucet. >_<

~Antreus

Feb 18, 2006, 12:43:44 AM

Hey Delphinus!

I just thought I'd start posting some of my artwork too. See you!

~Tsipotchka

Nov 9, 2005, 4:30:07 AM

Oh no! We're all doomed! I've finally fallen into this trap! What ever shall we do?

How about I bug the hell out of you? That's probably the only thing I am good at...

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!Psykome

Jul 27, 2005, 1:47:15 PM

Nice gallery

Im not crazy, cause I take the right pills

~Sabiru-bara

Jul 10, 2005, 8:03:46 PM

YOU HAVE BEEN HUGGED!!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

*dingding* RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You can't hug the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- hug 6 other people
4- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

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The mother of a child is the heart of a child but the father is the soul

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My heart and soul thrive in some of the greatest of friends. the light goes on and on until someone comes and turns it off.
The mother of a child is the heart of a child but the father is the soul

You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. add this as a comment to ten of ur friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years..."

Pass it on to anyone you think might need to read it. Ignore that bottom part if you want, I think it's kinda stupid...

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~Sabiru-bara

Jun 22, 2005, 6:42:44 PM

well of course it is a sex chain filled with sex

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~DelphinusW

Jun 21, 2005, 7:23:18 PM

OMGWTFBBQ

It's a sexy chain! That sounds so suggestive...

~Sabiru-bara

Jun 19, 2005, 9:38:58 PM

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~Sabiru-bara

Jun 9, 2005, 8:32:35 AM

et: I am sorry christian...

et: Get a marshmellow mallet and hit a few times....my scanner at my fathers doesn't like to work either...I wan't to update as well *sigh*

et: :boing!boing!:

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~DelphinusW

Jun 9, 2005, 3:54:18 AM

Christian's scanner is throwing a pissy fit and refusing to cooperate, because he's had lineart sitting next to him for a while that he's been unable to load into Photoshop.

~Sabiru-bara

Jun 4, 2005, 7:27:35 AM

Christian es a lazy bum not drawing or updating...lazy

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~Sadako-Akiko

Apr 28, 2005, 2:42:00 PM

*looks around* Okay now I have another person to stalk, first Nicole, then lyndsey and now you, all I need now is Rianna and then I will have acheived the ultimate stalkiness. Hmm is that even a word?

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~DelphinusW

Apr 27, 2005, 9:32:28 AM

Oh your god! What about Him?

On that note, welcome to DA. It's about bleedin' time.

*<3's on back, if it was intended for him*

~Riannamation

Apr 26, 2005, 2:35:20 PM

OMG OMG OMG

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*BloodyKisses56

Apr 24, 2005, 7:55:05 AM

Nope. I usually don't set out to scare people...it just happens.

No I don't think we have met. I just came across your page and said hi. (I must have been in a weird mood or something)

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